We all made it through another year, in five days it will be 2019 and I for one am excited about what the new year holds!
To celebrate the beginning of the new year, and also the inevitable end of 2018, I wanted to host 5 days of reflection. Starting today and ending on January 7th, 2019, following my posting schedule on Monday, Wednesdays, and Fridays, I will share a different reflection each day on things that I feel inspire me, challenge me, or have changed me in some way.
I encourage you to also follow along and do some end of the year reflecting on your own!
Today I’m thinking about the day I graduated from college. I felt so happy and so hopeful about my future. I obtained a bachelors in Art History, concentrating in Modern Art. I love art to an emotional degree; so naturally, I was compelled to follow my heart when choosing something to do for the rest of my life.
Unfortunately, life has a way of feeling like one large April fools joke. I had a complete plan after college but like many new graduates, I couldn’t find a job in my field. So I took another job in another industry that I loved, fashion, and promised myself that I would go back to find a job in my field when the time was right.
Days turned into months and months turned into years and now when I look to see what is out there in the art industry, I find that in order to start out in the field in a gallery or museum, I would never be able to pay my bills, which seem to have doubled since I graduated!
Every time I look at my diploma, I die a little inside because I’m still paying it off but not using it. All $61,300.30 of it. The number keeps growing and with each monthly interest fee incurred, I become more and more bitter.
Is it because I’m not working in my field? Is it because I’m not making the $60,000 annually instead of owing it? I ask myself where all of this negative emotion comes from because at the end of the day, through the shallow vale of bitterness and resentment, I feel ungrateful.
I got the opportunity to go to a great school and receive an education that extends past knowing the vocabulary and dates of masterpieces. I think about how much my mind has changed and evolved because of my education, I ask way more questions than I ever had before and I am able to interact with many different personality types, cultures and diverse backgrounds. Without college I’m pretty sure I would be in a much different place socially, not to mention intellectually.
My life has completely changed and improved as a direct result of college so I have to remind myself that getting the job is only one of the benefits of getting a degree. I can appreciate all of the other advantages that I’ve gained from my experience and that is what I’m learning to focus on.
So my $60,000 wall art is more of a badge of honor because college was hard! Art History was an extremely difficult degree to obtain because it was not just looking at beautiful works of art, there was also the historical element involved and trust me, you have never written a paper until you have written an art history scholarly paper. That in itself is an achievement all on its own.
It’s okay that I didn’t become a museum curator or a gallery owner, my interests are a little different now anyway. One thing is for certain, my life has improved since graduation and four years later, I’m still improving so that is something to be extremely proud of and grateful for.
What is something that you’ve achieved, but can’t seem to feel good about?